Its been a month I gave up my job and since then have travelled to Phuket for birthday and then Dehradhun to meet my Minnie and see her new homestay Chidiya Cafe (opening soon and is a must visit!). In this one month I have met many new people and each experience has left a mark on me.
From sharing my birthday with complete strangers to almost meeting the soulmate of my dreams and getting rejected, Phuket holds a special place in my heart and I'll always hold the memories close. After a long time I felt the need of a real relationship tugging at my heartstrings and I came back with a stronger resolve to do post-30 life right.
I also came back with a strange detachment to life with nothing to look forward to and an emptiness that I couldn't describe in mere words. I always believe that things happen when the time is right and maybe this limbo I'm living in isn't the time for action but to retrospect the three decades gone by and where I am now.
I think when I think strongly about something the Universe ALWAYS responds to me and that's why when I started thinking about relationships and love and commitment I met people who were full of it. While one showed me that a relationship with me is all about connections, the other made me first fall in love with myself, made me feel beautiful and not just in physical terms. I'm coming to realise there are so many facets to love and if you surround yourself with such people there's no way you won't find the L word everywhere and in every aspect of life.
Last night I watched my favourite film 'Before Sunrise' after many years and you know the thing that happens when you see something after a long time and you watch it in a different light? The meaning of this movie has changed for me now and it's more defining. Ready for a relationship or not I know I'm ready to give and receive love and let the good things happen to me. Universe is listening, I know! ❤️🙂
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| Chidiya Cafe, Shigally Hills Dehradhun |
From sharing my birthday with complete strangers to almost meeting the soulmate of my dreams and getting rejected, Phuket holds a special place in my heart and I'll always hold the memories close. After a long time I felt the need of a real relationship tugging at my heartstrings and I came back with a stronger resolve to do post-30 life right.
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| Staff at Honky Tonk Bar, Bangla Street |
I also came back with a strange detachment to life with nothing to look forward to and an emptiness that I couldn't describe in mere words. I always believe that things happen when the time is right and maybe this limbo I'm living in isn't the time for action but to retrospect the three decades gone by and where I am now.
I think when I think strongly about something the Universe ALWAYS responds to me and that's why when I started thinking about relationships and love and commitment I met people who were full of it. While one showed me that a relationship with me is all about connections, the other made me first fall in love with myself, made me feel beautiful and not just in physical terms. I'm coming to realise there are so many facets to love and if you surround yourself with such people there's no way you won't find the L word everywhere and in every aspect of life.
Last night I watched my favourite film 'Before Sunrise' after many years and you know the thing that happens when you see something after a long time and you watch it in a different light? The meaning of this movie has changed for me now and it's more defining. Ready for a relationship or not I know I'm ready to give and receive love and let the good things happen to me. Universe is listening, I know! ❤️🙂
