"What was closure if not a clock? Not an end as everyone imagined, but a beginning."
We all want it and most times we don't get offered any. What do you do when someone suddenly leaves you without any explanation and your heart feels like someone opened it and then slammed it down? Closure is the best lie we tell ourselves. At least I do that because I can be delusional enough to convince myself that it's the Universe's way of pulling me away from a path not meant for me.
But is it even possible to give anyone closure? I really feel we never get any because it's very easy to spiral down memory lane and re-live the hurt you once went through and then no amount of closure can help lessen that pain. We are humans with a mind and a heart and emotions, we are bound to feel things. Closure is a good veil to cover up but not a guarantee.
I've closed doors on friendships and relationships many times in life and I have seldom gotten any or given any closure. And I think that's what has made me a little heartless but it works, right. I still cry over lost connections but I move on letting my heart turn into stone slowly each time. My main policy in life is that however bad the situation, one year down the line it's never going to matter. And if you stop giving importance to people and things they cease to matter. Simply said, difficult to do but it is what it is.
I know all this sounds unhealthy and a cry for therapy, but I rather accept the person I've become than live a lie with toxic positivity. Lot of people have hurt me in life and I've hurt a lot of people, it's a never-ending cycle. Nothing remains important, so let it be.
