I always imagined the day something major happens to me, like a major illness or an injury. 32 years of my life nothing happened and boom! just a split second of ankle twist and now I'm on bed rest nursing an ankle fracture. 1 second is taking at least a month away from me and now I'm asking myself just why would I manifest this for myself??! It's painful, past one week felt like a lifetime and I still have some time to go before I can go back on my feet. And all this because I didn't sit at home one night and missteped while walking off a footpath. What a shame.
This blog has no larger picture reason, this is just me venting because I'm already so tired being in bed all day. Immobile. Helpless. Soon to be on crutches to be able to move without help. Doctors so easily say that it'll take 4-6weeks to heal but nobody wants to consider how that time will be spent? Have to pause my life literally for the ankle to bear some weight. Science needs to be more advanced, this is bullshit.
Now while I wait for things to go back to normal I have been trying my best to not fall into the abyss of overthinking. I'm trying to be patient, live one day at a time and tell myself that time will heal everything and this too shall pass. I want to be out meeting friends, sharing a drink with them and having a good time. I feel like something is stuck and I'm pushing against the current. I know if I stop counting time it'll go faster but only if it was that easy.
I'll try keeping myself busy with books and movies, practice walking on crutches so I can step out for sometime for some fresh air and BELIEVE in the deepest parts of me that I'm healing and I'll walk soon. I'll never forget this experience in life, for now it might be a painful situation but tomorrow I want to remember this as my test of patience. I want to use this experience to remind myself that I have been through this so I can do anything.
Inshallah, it'll be all done soon. 🧿💫🤲
